closing chapter.

As I wake up Söderhamn is already a distant memory, a closed chapter in the thick novel of my life. I took the decision a few days ago not to continue with my new job, a thought that's been with me for a month, but my naive personality said that it would get better if I just hold on. But then the new schedules came and I completely broke down.
I've always prioritized my own sanity before anything else, and this time was no different.

It's sad when I really liked the people I've met, but I feel I've done everything I could. And when a situation makes you cry and effects your mood to the point that your own boyfriend and your boss calls you a bitch, I think it's time to move on...
It wasn't supposed to go that far.

I'm grateful for the experience and to finally get out a little and meet new people. I've learned so much about myself, no ones perfect, and thanks to this I've seen the things I really need to work on to become a better person.

It's funny how things started moving together with yoga, life suddenly opened up.
I don't think it's a coincidence I got a job just a few weeks after I started my yoga class and ended it two weeks from finishing it. It all feels like it's been an "off-yogamat"-lecture I must say. And thinking like a yogi has been the biggest help to keep going everyday: waking up at five, never miss the train, doing good at work, adjusting to peoples personalities, inspire, letting go of grudges, being grateful for what I've got, finding time, compromising, and of all showing love when I don't feel like I have anything to give.

Right before I started working my mom lend me "The Magic", it's a book to help you practice gratefulness. I didn't really come far in the assignments before I felt all energy being put into work. I'm hoping now to start over and start practicing yoga again, and that I'm really excited over!
I've always had thoughts of bliss in my heart each day, but it wasn't something I wrote down in a journal.

Something you can do each day is write down ten things you're grateful of each day, on the computer or in a notebook.
No matter how small or big, but it's important to always write also Why you are grateful — this strengthens your blessings, to remind yourself of Why you feel a way. And then read it out loud saying "Thank You, Thank You, Thank You" after each point. And then finishing with ten deep breathes of meditation.

I always finish my blessings with thanking the Universe, Life and Light for always being with me, holding me grounded and keep me moving forward. Namasté.


leave a comment