"just don't settle down so quickly, my friend. there are plenty of fireflies in the swamp."

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Don't know what to call him so I say he's "my guy".
We're somewhere between friends and lovers, in an almost relationship.
We don't know exactly where this is going, 'cause he lives there, and I live here.
But you can always imagine, and dream we do - about our future together.

I don't want to be called his "girlfriend" and I don't want to call him my "boyfriend".
We're not there yet, and I don't wanna be tied down just yet.

It's funny how you long for love, and when love finds you, you think you're better off without it?
I've lived so long without a man. He's lived so long without a woman. We both would be okay if things wouldn't work out.
But there's this complex thing, that curiosity, that inner need to be with somebody.
Wouldn't you rather have someone to love and to be loved, than forever go through life alone?
Of course you have your friends and family, but would you really give up on having a lifelong supporting best friend and lover?
- I write "lifelong" because I'm pretty sure that if someone leaves it will be me. Guys like my man is very rare in these times, he wouldn't mind going through fire for saving our relationship if he knew it we're for real. I hate to say it, he's Prince Charming, and he is for real.

They say, that if a guy truly loves you, he will love you more than you love him. It's absolutely true.
My love, can't compare to his.

He's not completely perfect, but that's what makes him even more awesome. We're like patato and potato, but two puzzles that fit beautifully together. If you look closer you'll see that I need him and he needs me.

The question has long been: can I live with someone who's my opposite?
I've always dreamt about someone with somewhat the same taste in music and interests, same thinking.
But the greatest couple aren't alike, their love grows strong by time and they fill in each others faults.
So I've come to terms that he is not perfect on that level but dismissing him completely this early would be my biggest mistake in my life.

At least he makes me laugh, and I make him laugh.
And there's definitely mutual attraction.
And that's what's matters, little bit of both...

sierra leone.



What would you do if I held your hand and laid you down?

Would you find me overly familiar towards you?
I'd like to hold you sometime

this girl is so fucking beautiful.

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Right now:
- Started University
- Having a nosebleed
- Reading an interesting book
- Planning to go to komvux (to read up some of that math) in the spring
- Thinking about how wonderful it would be to move out of here and live with my guy
- Also a bit scared about the thing above, that things are moving to fast
- Am I in love? Can I be in love?
- I wanna go to a hairdresser and scream, "Make me beautiful!" My hair is just aweful.

be here.

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via le love

So this is it?
A new chapter in my life.

Let's see how this period in my life goes.
New people?
Old people?
New experiences?
Old ones?

IDK.

i see you, you see me.



I wanna tell you that I'll never love anyone else
You wanna tell me that you're better off by yourself
But darling when I see you, you see me

headbang.

via grayskymorning

Some drunk cunt headbanged into my nose last night when Robyn came out to the stage.
That was the end of that evening.

Nothing is broken, just a bit swollen.
And no nosebleed thank God.
I'm ok, even if I got a cold, sore throat, swollen nose, and my period.

Everything is just fi-ine...

CROSSOVER /GO/COMMERCIAL.


two girls/two guys.


ph1 nevver, ph2 burningdollars

blablablaihatethiscityblablabla.



I hate people who has their face/body as their header. idk, but it irritates the crap out of me.
I hate people who preach about self-centeredness to young girls. (one eg, Egoboost by Isabella Löwengrip)
I hate people in general. Except those few intelligent people who has the same opinions as me and don't see the funny in what the majority thinks is funny.
It's just sad. It's pure sadness to see what people in this world (Sweden) like. It's so fucking sad to me.
Sometimes I'm feeling so chocked and I'm all certain that I'm gonna move to a more intelligent country, 'cause seriously, I'm quite done with dumbing myself to their level.
I know there's always gonna be dumb people wherever I go, but still, somewhere in the world the majority of people doesn't care about consumption, somewhere in the world the majority of people are more conscious. I believe that somewhere in the world there's a land where nobody cares, everyone just is.
Fuck it would be so nice to just be.

I'm not sorry for complaining, 'cause this is reality and the truth. Sometimes it feels like we are all going in the wrong direction and I can't escape. I have to go with. I have to adjust. And I'm just tired.
When is somebody gonna adjust to me?!

That is what everybody's saying.

summers gone, fall has come.



via iwantmybearsuit


Popaganda and I've got a cold. Great. Great.
And on Monday I start school. GREAT. GREAT.

i can't decide.

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ph1 French Frosting, ph2 weheartit

somewhere within you, all is well, no matter when, no matter what.

via engineeringdreams

The only thing that cheers me up today is:
+ Those chats about nothing and everything I have with my guy while he's at work. (I'm a very annoying girl to be with)
+ Finding a new designblog. (can I have this chair?)

the moments we take for granted.

Moments from Everynone on Vimeo.


black swan.



Oh my God, that last scene...
I try to watch it over and over again, but just as it's on its way to end,
I stop.

I'm literally shaking from it and getting ironically goosebumps from it. Brrr

Probably another great movie by my favorite driector Darren Aronofsky.

into the clouds.


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(via senkaisyourbitch)
tumblr.

8/23/2010.

Picture #115

"make a point to view what has already happened in a positive light. and you'll find even better things coming your way."

via vinnieinfurs

Got so many things on my mind right now.
Everyday I think, "What have I put myself into?"
There's no going back, or is there?

The distance is growing, my feelings are fading.
I know less than I knew then. Before I knew nothing.
What is less than nothing?

Going the distance was harder than I thought.
I didn't count on my bad memory.
I didn't think of Life's unconscious flow that for ever goes on.
My life keeps spinning, with or without you.

My love is too young for it to be strong.
I'm sorry if my words for you are slipping away.
I truly do love you, but I don't know in what way.
Too early to say, too late to begin.

I don't know where I stand with my feelings.
I try to remember all the good things.
I want to remember why I wanted you in the first place.

I don't want to hurt you.

berlin.

BERLIN 2010 from Connie Zhou on Vimeo.


mayflower.


the scientist.


"Hej Honey.
En sak till bara. Tänk så mycket tid och möda man ägnar åt att undra vem man ska älska och om man älskar vederbörande tillräckligt mycket. Men det svåraste är ju att bli älskad. Det är det svåraste av allt.
Gissa vem jag hamnade bredvid på planet hem?
Vi ses i nästa liv!

Sköt om dig.
/Alex"

~ Honeymoon by Amy Jenkins

randoms.


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in the short run we don't match, but in the long run we compliment each other so well.


via elateddreams


I hate that you don't think like me
I hate that we don't speak the same language
I hate that you're sometimes no good help at all
Though I love that these are your only faults

You're too much Sense and I'm too much Sensibility.
And if we could blend those two things together
We can do anything
<3

damaged.

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via inbetweendreams and iwantmybearsuit

Dreaming comes so easily
'cause it's all that i've known
True love is a fairy tale
I'm damaged, so how would i know

I'm scared and i'm alone

I'm ashamed
And i need for you to know

I didn't say all the things that i wanted to say

And you can't take back what you've taken away
'cause i feel you, i feel you near me

I didn't say all the things that i wanted to say


And you can't take back what you've taken away

'cause i feel you, i feel you near me

Healing comes so painfully

And it chills to the bone
Will anyone get close to me?
I'm damaged, as i'm sure you know

There's mending for my soul

An ending to this fear
Forgiveness for a man who was stronger
I was just a little girl, but i can't go back

~ Lyrics by Plumb


This song reminds me of when I was fifteen.
Sometimes I feel like that all over again.

time-lapse.

Virgin Atlantic plane livery time-lapse movie from johnson banks on Vimeo.


little pussycats and love.


via tumblr.

"what do I wear in bed? why, chanel no. 5, of course."


words.

WORDS from Everynone on Vimeo.


ballerinas ftw.











dear japan.

Dear Japan from Matthew Brown on Vimeo.

This is amzaing. Love the track.
It's all shot with a 7D, want it badly.

the poet acts.


The cello is so beautiful here...

Don't know what's wrong. Been cleaning. Crying. Cleaning. Feeling numb. Cleaning. Spaced out.

Some corpses are trying to dig theirselves out.
I just need a day or two to bury them back.

Some things you didn't expect to hurt anymore, hurts even more now.


saturday inspiration.

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tumblr finds.

Been cleaning the house and my desktop today. The only not so funny thing with having two cats is the every-day-cleaning-part.
Been listening to Philip Glass too, I love cleaning to classical music, and this album is just so beautiful.
Listen to Philip Glass – Trilogy Sonata: Knee Play No. 4 From Einstein On The Beach

day one fans.



Haha, I'm totally crazy about this song!
Especially jogging to it.

4:30am.

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I don't know why, but around four o'clock seems to be the time when my cats go loco. Running around and waking me up.

barbie video girl.

Canon 7D vs. Barbie Video Girl from Brandon Bloch on Vimeo.

I've said this before, I BADLY want a Canon 7D!!!

we are your friends.

via iloveyoursoul

Woke up to a wonderful text today by my sweet Popcorn.
First she got me a bit paranoid when she wrote, "What's happening today? Excpet that you're gonna meet me?"
I was like, "Have I made plans with her and I've totally forgotten?"
Turns out, she doesn't want to go home to an empty apartment, and she doesn't either wanna meet a guy who wants her bad. (I wouldn't either wanna meet him)
So my plans for today is wandering the streets of Stockholm with Popcorn.

b/w.


via tumblr.

and heaven spoke to me. they all said, "never fear for what you've lost. we find a way home eventually."


Self-portrait.

Not often I post pictures of myself nowadays.
I think I've grown out of my narcissistic-teenage-side, I don't need others to confirm I'm beautiful, and I have nothing more to show. I've taken pictures of every single side of my face, they all look now the same.
I'm not into fashion, so there's no today's outfit to show, 'cause I practically sleep and walk in the same clothes for days. Sounds maybe disgusting, well, so I am.

I actually didn't like this picture at first. But then after zooming for details, I loved the way my hair looked like I've just woken up.
I haven't cut it in almost a year, time to do so, and maybe something else.

who cares about the picture.

Alex Lim

This is just sad. More than a houndred year old trees all chopped down...

i am so clever that sometimes i don't understand a single word of what i am saying. ~ oscar wilde


there is sex, than there is durex.

Durex Commercial Final from Chris Van Poos on Vimeo.

Been watching condom commercials all day long, this is by far the best one!
Makes me laugh every single time!

You gotta watch this one. And this one. And this one too!

love the way you lie.


oh I’ll be the one who'll break my heart.

by Michael Barolet

I managed to stabilize my doubts and second thoughts.
I just don't think I deserve him. That's all.

And btw, I love this picture.

4am.


© All rights reserved by me.

I've been waking up 4am two nights in a row.
And have become all enchanted by the sunrise outside my window.

So beautiful I wanna become it.

uncertainty.


this chair is unbelievably beautiful.


things change and you gotta change with them.

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Bella 185

I don't know what's wrong with me nowadays.
I wish I could feel something other than... lost.

kanada's death.


I'm coughing and feeling weak.

That was the best run I've had in a long time.
That run that is so fast as if you were running for your life.
That run that takes you somewhere safe.
Running until you can't catch your breathe.

And for a second... I was lost.

My worries had disappeared.
My problems nonexistent.
I was.

Then the music stopped and reality flashed back to me.
I had overrun my components.

If I could run like that forever
I would.

complicated.

Poppy Cockburn

Fuck.
I'm scared.
I can feel my heart racing.
This always happens.

The anxiety.
The duality.
I can't handle it.

I wish I could erase my painting I just did.
People would tell I'm fucking stupid,
but I don't know if I can live with myself.
I hate choosing, can't things just be without them being so...
Permanent?

I'm trying to erase my past.
Start somewhere new.
I don't want all this I have right now.

Right now everything is wrong and I have no idea why.
I just started panicking for no reason.
I just don't know what I rather be.
I never know.

And that's the thing, I feel so sorry for anyone who wants to come close.
Why would you do that, why would you even want that?
Don't I hide it so well?
I just know and I'm afraid that I will screw things up.
I'm so good at that, I'm the Best.

Another failure is coming in my life, I just feel it.
I'm such a complex little girl...

islands.

The XX 'Islands' - Director: Saam Farahmand from Tom Lindsay on Vimeo.
Pics by mil.a


What I want...

... is to wake up to your tired eyes every morning.
... to sheer you up every single day.
... I want you to worry every time I go home alone late at night.
... for you to give me one of those Hollywood hugs, where you lift me up.
... eat breakfast with you in the morning.
... late evening talks about everything and nothing.
... small things we take for granted.

... hold your hand to show the world I'm yours.

each day.



say yes to the best possibilities, and even better possibilities will then open up to you.

Various Tumblr finds.


Yesterday, saw the movie Life During Wartime by Todd Solondz, who also directed Happiness.
LDW was very much like Happiness, almost a boring but yet interesting parody, or something in that sense.
The movie had it's moments, but much of the time my eyes wanted to shut.
See both or just Happiness if you haven't seen it.

how to be alone.



I've always questioned why people are afraid of loneliness?
It's actually easier to be alone than to have friends.

And to you who says I'm wrong, well, than you've never really been alone.

creative staircase.

East Village StudioEast Village Studio
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phobic.


by Tunedbeat

All my fears are actually very beautiful.

rps.

How Do I Win Rock Paper Scissors Every Time
How can I win

santa maria.


random design finds.

lofi sofaWinestein

 

Portrait Projecting RingVIKA VEINE Table top black-brown Width: 39

 

 

 

via Design Milk, Likecool, Nyheter24


the little man inside.



GEORGE
: Kramer, should I call Susan?
KRAMER: Now what does the little man inside you say? See you gotta listen to the little man.
GEORGE: My little man doesn’t know.
KRAMER: The little man knows all.
GEORGE: My little man’s an idiot.

via The Pick

here kitty kitty.



Waking up early to greet this cat isn't exactly what I wanted to put on my list. - The waking up part, not the greeting part.
Well, this big fellow is gonna stay here for a week, my cats don't like it but they'll just have to live with a stranger in their territory.
But he's a really smart cat, been everywhere, done everything, and he follows me wherever I go.
iow very cute!

Going back to sleep now, I'm so tired that I feel sick.

random inspiration.



Tumblr finds

the urge to go somewhere.


julia

ramón esteve estudio de arquitectura.

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